Well tomorrow is the day! The day I have spent years dreaming of. I will be headed on my first solo journey. And it’s to New York!
I have always wanted to go there, and I am so thrilled that I haven’t backed out (though it is too late now haha).
I have to say, I am very surprised by how calm I am during this process, as I can typically panic over any situation. Maybe it’s because this is what I am meant to do with my life. Or maybe it’s because it still doesn’t feel real. At 10:30 this evening I have just finished my packing. I plan trips from start to finish all of the time, so perhaps that is why this doesn’t feel much different. I do feel some butterflies, but typically I’d be in a full fledged anxiety attack by now.
I have googled some of the most ridiculous things for this trip, especially in the last few days. I have come to realize though, sometimes you can’t just look up the question and find the answer. Sometimes you have to experience it to find your own answer. The travel blogger Brooke Saward at World of Wanderlust has previously made a statement that I have repeated to myself anytime I’ve gotten a twinge of nerves today, and that is, “All it takes is one moment of insane courage.” That is my mantra right now. I am living courageously by taking this first step.
In 2011, I moved to Denmark and made the trip by myself. I was meant to be there for a year, but due to an illness in the family I was called back early. That was probably the most terrifying time of my life. I said goodbye to everyone for what I thought would be a year. It was very emotional and nerve wracking. It was different than this trip though. I had a friend waiting for me there, and I knew most of my family members were within a 3 hour drive at most. There was a safety net feeling that came with it. I find this trip calming in the sense that I am coming home again in a few short days. Where my nerves lie this time around, it getting by, by myself. I am commuting, living, eating and exploring all by myself. Luckily though, I am comfortable in my own company so it shouldn’t be an issue. I feel I become more confident with each travel experience I have because each one comes with very different and important lessons. I feel so privileged to be able to take this trip, and as a photographer, I can’t even begin to explain how excited I am for some really inspiring scenery!
For now, I wish you all a good night. I am off to sleep now to prepare for this journey. Keep up with my trip on Instagram at @travelandpictures to get access to my photos as the events take place.